Seungkwan's Birthday Cafe in Busan

Entertainment January 16, 2024

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Best of Best 2023: My Fangirl Review, Highlights and Goals

Lifestyle January 01, 2024

2023 was my best yet my worst year

Last 2022, I was writing my best of best recaps in the Philippines. But now, I'm writing it here in South Korea. Who would have thought that after years of planning, I am finally living here in South Korea to study.

The first half of 2023 was the worst for me. Worst than I could have ever imagined. It was the time where I lost trust with everything - self, family, friends, life, God. I lost all my will to move forward. A lot of people know me as someone who doesn't give up easily. But it was that time where I gave up and just let life do whatever it wants to happen in my life. I no longer care. There's no more joy.

Despite the fact of having that kind of feeling, I was still gifted with a lot of special thing making my 2023 also the best year.

Love Fanmeeting in Tokyo

The Tokyo dream came true. After being a KPop fan for how many years already, I never expected that I will be able to attend an event in Japan. I was so frustrated that I wasn't able to attend Seventeen's Caratland 2023. Little did I know, I will be able to watch their fanmeeting in Tokyo.

I cannot share much on what really happened but it will always be my traumatic experience ever. And I hope it will no longer happen to me.

Wearing Hanbok at Gyeongbokgung Palace

Aside from the fanmeeting, one of the best things that happened to me this year was moving to South Korea to study for my Master's. I have been dreaming of studying abroad for years now. But as someone who is not financially capable of doing it on my own, I have to rely heavily on scholarships.

Thankfully, I passed the Global Korea Scholarship. And now, I'm here in South Korea.

Comparing my life in the past years, my life was really in both ends this 2023. I also have less fangirling events this year. I know it's for my future but I just can't help but feel sad for my present for always having to sacrifice my now for my later.

For 2024, to be honest, I'm afraid to create more goals as I already feel so bad if I won't be able to reach those goals. But yeah, I'm used to with pains so I'm going to write some goals (that's how contradicting I am)

For my fangirling life

My goal is to watch SEVENTEEN's concerts and fanmeetings here in South Korea. If I will also be given the chance to watch a music show, why not. Aside from that, I also plan to watch DAY6 and Super Junior's concerts here in South Korea.

My main goal is to really see SEVENTEEN, DAY6, and Super Junior.

For my social media platforms

My goal is to continue to post stuff that I want to post. I have to keep reminding myself that this is my platform and I can share what I want to share as long as it doesn't hurt anyone. I am so thankful that I have reached 1k+ subscribers on Youtube but I still aim to reach more people and help them.

For myself

My goal is to reach TOPIK 2 Level 4 by the end of my Korean language class and be able to enter my Master's without any problem. With that, I will be studying even harder to reach this. But at the same time, I will not forget to enjoy life.

2024, I'm not ready for you. Please be kind to me. Please be the year that I can say that you are my favorite year. Please be the best year.

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SEVENTEEN S.Coups Surprises Carats with a Self-Composed Song 'Me'

Entertainment December 31, 2023

An emotional self-composed song, 'Me'

At exactly midnight of December 31 KST, SEVENTEEN leader, S.Coups, released his self-composed song entitled 'Me'. This made Carats (fandom name of SEVENTEEN) caught off guard.

Although S.Coups has been telling Carats through his Weverse posts and lives that he is working on something, no one expected that it will be released on the last day of 2023.

This song was written by S.Coups together with SEVENTEEN’s longtime producer BUMZU. According to S.Coups, this song is his feelings.

'Me' Lyrics & Translations

(May contain inaccuracies)

어젯밤 꿈속에서 다른 나를 꿈꿨어

지금 거울 앞에 나 말고 다른 나를

도망치고 싶은 맘

그게 참 쉬웠나봐

어쩌면 벼랑 끝에서 다른 나를 찾아

매일 현관문을 밀고 나설 때

다른 사람이 된 기분을 느껴

내 안과 밖애 다른 두개의 세상이

손가락질 해 겁쟁이라 욕 해

두 개 이름의 나는 두 개의 삶을 살아

내 어떤 삶을 사랑하나요

두 개가 나인 나는 마음이 하나라서

당신에게 난 하날거예요

난 난 난 난

두 개가 나인 나는 마음이 하나라서

당신에게 난 하날거예요 난

비린내 나는 그 입 좀 닥쳐봐

그게 내 몸에 지도 몰라

쉽게 뱉은 말은 모두 거짓말

그렇게 거짓말 그게 사실이 돼

그럴 때 난 아무 말도 못 했어

아무 것도 못 했어

그래서 난

매일 현관문을 밀고 나설 때

다른 사람이 된 기분을 느껴

내 안과 밖애 다른 두개의 세상이

손가락질 해 겁쟁이라 욕 해

두 개 이름의 나는 두 개의 삶을 살아

내 어떤 삶을 사랑하나요

두 개가 나인 나는 마음이 하나라서

당신에게 난 하날거예요

난 난 난 난 난

죽고 싶었던 나의 손목를 놓지 않은

당신에게 난 하날거예요 난

I dreamed of a different me last night.

I see a different me in the mirror right now

The desire to run away

It must've been so easy

Maybe I'll find another me at the edge of the cliff

When I open the front door everyday

I feel like a different person

The two worlds inside and outside of me

Point fingers, call each other cowards

I have two names, I live two lives

Which life do I love?

In between the two of me, I have one heart

To you I'll be one

Me me me me

In between the two of me, I have one heart

For you I'll be one, I'll be one

Shut up that fishy mouth of yours

Maybe it's in my body

Everything you say is a lie

That lie becomes a fact

When that happened, I couldn't say anything

I couldn't do anything

That's why I

When I open the front door everyday

I feel like a different person

The two worlds inside and outside of me

Point fingers, call each other cowards

I have two names, I live two lives

Which life do I love?

In between the two of me, I have one heart

To you I'll be one

Me me me me

When I wanted to die, you didn't let me go

For you I'll be one, I'll be one

Listen to S.Coups 'Me'

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Fangirl's Pick: Favorite KDramas of 2023

Entertainment December 30, 2023

I started watching KDramas again after moving to South Korea

As far as I can remember, I wasn't able to watch any new KDrama in the first half of 2023. And when I moved to South Korea, I didn't immediately watched KDramas. In fact it took me almost two months before I started watching dramas again. You can say that I am in a drama slump.

But thanks to Tiktok, my FYP has been all about KDramas. So, I got interested again and started watching KDramas. Plus, it can also help me with my Korean language journey.

These are the KDramas that I liked this 2023

Twinkling Watermelon

Twinkling Watermelon is a story about a high school student who has this passion for music but keeps on hiding it because he needs to take care of his family who has a hearing disability. When he was about to give up he visited a mysterious music instrument shop which led him to go back to the past. He then met his father and mother.

One of the reasons why I liked this show is probably because of music. I am also a music lover. I used to dream about being a singer to be honest. And I probably was able to relate with the giving up music part. That's why I got hooked with it. Eventually, I fell in love with the casts.

Night Has Come

Different genre from Twinkling Watermelon, Night Has Come is a mystery teen drama wherein students who had a field trip suddenly ended up playing Mafia. The twist is, the killing happens in real life.

As someone who likes these kind of dramas, I was immediately hooked. I was guessing who are the Mafias, tho it's a bit obvious. But still, there were times I was wrong. It's not recommended to watch at night though.

Perfect Marriage Revenge

Perfect Marriage Revenge is one of the dramas that you didn't expect will really hit. No one actually expected that a lot of people will watch this drama. Perfect Revenge Marriage is a drama based from a webcomic which is about an adopted girl who died after running away from her evil family and was given a chance to change her life. She came back to life a year after the incident happened. With this, she decided to change her life.

I would again like to thank Tiktok for the clips because I was able to watch this amazing drama. Although it was a bit fast for me, I still enjoyed it. I love the main leads' chemistry.

Daily Dose of Sunshine

Daily Dose of Sunshine is a drama about a nurse who is working in a neuropsychiatry department. She tries her best to deal with every patient.

This is one heavy drama for me to be honest. Even though I get triggered by this drama, I still wanted to continue watching it hoping that I too can be healed in the future. It's heavy but still heartwarming.

The Escape of the Seven

If you're looking for a KDrama like Penthouse, then I can recommend this drama. Aside from the fact that some casts here are also in Penthouse, the stress (but interesting feels) that this can bring you is insane. It is about 7 people who are trying to continue living despite being involved in a girl's disappearance case.

I'm still waiting for the second season of this drama though. But the first season is really great to watch.

How about you guy? What are your favorite 2023 KDramas? Share it to me so that I can add it to my list.